New Relationship Status ๐Ÿ‘€

New Relationship Status ๐Ÿ‘€

I am now in a new relationship….

With MYSELF.

I’m sure you have some questions… Liiiike..

Weren’t you dating someone? ๐Ÿ‘€ย What happened?ย ๐Ÿ‘€ย Was he even real? ๐Ÿ‘€ย 

Well, lose the suspenseful glares; I feel your beady eyes dartingย at me.

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I was dating someone.

He was and is very sweet.

Sometimes you need thatย in your life.

Sure, I could have kept dating him just to have someone around… But I’m not that kind of woman. ๐Ÿ’โ€โ™€๏ธ

(I mean, it was only like 2.5 months officially).

I spiraled into a depressive state after Tip passed away. Also struggling with the situation with my father. Still not being over my ex-boyfriend (it would help if he didn’t try to creep on me).ย 

If you couldn’t tell by my last few posts. I was kind of… a mess.

(Not my usual every-day-mess status, but like, super-extra-mess status).ย ๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜ข

I cannot very well expect to focus on myself and my growth and health and goals while also providing relationship level support for someone else when I was not sureย how ready I was for something serious.

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Now, I’m not saying he was holding me back…ย He didn’t necessarily do anything wrong.

He was supportive and kind and obviously don’t forget tall, handsome and sexy…ย ๐Ÿ˜

Buuuut something was missing.ย โœ‹

Me.

I was missing.

So, I ended it.ย ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ

Now, I’m in a new relationship. With muhhhhself.ย 

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^Me talking to myself about tackling my goals and achieving greatness^

I cannot emphasize how important is to be aware of your own emotional well-being and how it affects yourself and those around you.

If you are not happy with where you are at, you have the power to do what you can to change it so that you have the ability to work towards a goal of happiness in your life.

Ask yourself: are you happy? What makes me happy? Start a list. Write it down.

RIGHT NOW. DO IT. Add to it. Read it daily.

I believe my man-friend was and is important to me. I went into it with no expectations, no intentions, no knowledge of what would come out of it. I felt okay… But was I happy?

Sometimes, things just don’t work out and that is okay.

Do not stay in a relationship just to stay in a relationship.

Do not neglect yourself to save someone else’s feelings.

Do not hold onto things that are not holding onto you.

Do not stay in a job if you are miserable and you have the ability to find another opportunity…

I have accepted a job with a great company, with whichย I start next week.

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This new opportunity will allow me more stability, experience, benefits, and growth… While giving me more time to focus on what I love most: myself. *flips hair*

Yes, I know I have been quiet…

But I have traveled, tried to ‘relationship’ if it were a verb, ย job-hunted, focused on my next career move, thought about going back to school and now that I have a great opportunity secured…

I want to shift the gears of my life into another direction.ย 

When I traveled toย Philadelphia last month,ย I did all the touristy things. Drank too many margs. Ate a Philly Cheesesteak. And before you ask, no, the actual bar from It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia is not actually in Philadelphia.

I do think Philly stole my heart.

We tried to catch the train to NYC and literally missed it by ONE MINUTE.

I swear it felt like one of those shitty movies.. But we made it on the next train.

We saw Kinky Boots on Broadway starring the one and only, incredibly and unbelievably talented Brendon Urie from Panic! At the Disco while in NYC.

*Or did Brendon steal my heart?*

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We rode bicycles through Central Park after drinking mimosas from my fave brunch spot in Manhattan.

Which I will tell you, this was NO easy feat.. (The bicycling, not the mimosas!)

It’s mimOOOsa, not mimosAAA.

This coming weekend, I am traveling to Dallas, TX to visit my dearest friend.

When I arrive home, I will start my new career. New perspective. New schedule. New goals. New Kristan.

“Sorry, the old Kristan can’t come the phone right now. Why? Oh, cause she’s DEAD.”
-T. Swifty

Unrelated side note, I feel like it is important to mention that I have already decorated my home for Halloween.

I am ready for what us in the south consider fall weather!ย ๐Ÿ‚๐Ÿ‚๐Ÿ‚๐Ÿ‚

Yes, I am aware that it is only September 6th. JUDGE ME.

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I better treat myself right in this relationship.ย ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’

Be good.

xoxo,
Stila

P.S. Here is a bonus GIF of Brendon Urie. You’re welcome.

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